The bad news: whenever I become extremely angry, I become a sort of monster. A monster who enjoys hurting people, who shows no remorse for his wrongs, who screams like some heavy-metal singer, etc.
The secret side of me that few has seen. A secret side that I try to kill and contain.
Forgiving people is a priority in trying to contain this monster. Although forgiving is hard, it is necessary in not letting the monster out.
Unfortunately, it's becoming harder to contain this monster. Stress, frustration, anger, all contribute to this. Sometimes, certain aspects of this monster's character surface when I become angry.
A lot of people think this a joke. They think that I'm cute when I'm "angry." Actually, I'm not angry at that time. Wait till they see him. Wait till they see what I become when I'm really angry. Wait till they see what he can do.
I am horrified by the damage that this beast has done. I can't believe that it resides in me, a dark side of me.
Warning signs of me becoming very angry: Clenched fists until veins start to show, not talking to anybody, keeping to myself, breathing very loudly, talking like I want to kill someone.
Signs of the monster: smashing stuff, throwing things, screaming really loud, snarling like a beast, talking like I'm screaming heavy metal, etc.
When you see this signs get away from me!!!! Best of all, don't provoke me! In that state, I can do something very drastic. I don't want anyone to get hurt.
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